Ishi Loves Me Just Too Much

Last evening she came back from school and I was getting some snack and milk ready for her. Meanwhile she grew a little restless and took out a box with assorted biscuits from the cupboard. She took one and just when she was about to eat, it fell down beacuse of me. I said, "I am so sorry Ishi" to which she replied, "Amma, you dont have to say sorry to me. You never have to. I love you so much even when you scold me". She immediately came and hugged me. That admiration for me from Ishi ........the feeling was just out of the world and needless to say, my love and respect for her as an individual grew by leaps and bounds. Time and again we keep thinking that she is more and more mature than kids of her age. And she never proved us wrong till date.

Ishi is scared of travelling with Momma !!

Last night just when me and Ishi got into the bed to sleep, Ishi asked me when we were leaving for Mumbai. I told her there is still a week. Then she said that her dad should come to Bangalore and take us to Mumbai. I told her that I am there to take her safely and there is nothing to worry. I even reminded her of our countless journeys alone without S. Then she corrected me saying we only travelled by train and never by flight without her dad. I said, "So what I am there, and be it a flight or train, I am capable of taking her." Suddenly I realized what her worry was all about. She saw me and S discussing about the airport layout. As I have never used this new airport before, I have enquired S about the stores and all inside the airport. She understood this as if her mom does not know how to travel by flight. And thats what scared her. She ended our discussion saying, "I know that you do not know how to travel by flight and I saw dad telling you everything." The moment she said, I was in splits. You bet I am not !!

She is Special !!

Yesterday S was in office and me n Ishi were home. It was around noon and we were watching TV. She had enough TV time and I demanded mine. So I changed the channel to watch some culinary show. She surely was bored and started to play by herself. She has this habbit of playing with all things available in the dressing table(hair clips, fancy ear rings, bangles, make up et al) She got me one of the nicest and expensive ear rings and asked me to wear them. I paid ignorance.

After sometimes she came to me complaining that she lost one ear ring. I was so pissed off at that moment (which I ideally should not be)that I scolded her and gae her hostile looks. Poor thing she was so visibly shaken that she asked me not to shout at her. I told her not to play with such things again in future. She again asked me not to talk about it and asked me to hug her. Poor thing she was crying so much that when I hugged her she held on to me so dearly and just did not leave me.

What she spoke afterwards made me feel shameful of what I did to her. She said that she does not want her foot wear, toys, bangles, books anything but she wants just me and her dad to her. She meant to say that her parents are teh only thing that matters to her. I just did not know what to say. What she spoke then was just tooo much for her age and unexpected. I felt so shameful about how I scolded her for just a small thing which I can afford to buy. All I wanted to convey her was to be careful about the possessions but the way I tried to do it was bad.

Lesson learnt my little princess. Heartfelt sorry to you indeed. Just could not have a better daughter than you in my life !!