It has been quite a normal start that day. We all discussed about how long we have to wait for the arrival of the baby over our morning cuppa. I was told by B pinni to come for a scan on 9th if i dint deliver till then. But she called us up suddenly and asked to come for a scan that day itself saying that she would be relatively free as that day being a Sunday. We took it casually as there were no symptoms of labor and headed to her clinic after lunch.
Me n mom went to the scanning room. B pinni scanned me. There was little moment of the baby inside. I could see her wrist clenched. She scanned for more than an hour that which looked somewhat unusual to me. She then told me to wait there and went out. She was on phone with someone for quite long a time. She came back and scanned me again. She took mom out and spoke to her. Later we all went to pinnis house. Then pinni told me that the oxygen supply to the baby seems to have come down and it would be tough for her to come out on her own. More over she might have a brain damage due to less oxygen inside. So it is wise to opt for a C-section and take her out immediately. I was shocked. I always had this thing on the back of my mind that I will have a normal delivery as my physical condition was absolutely fine. I did not put on unnecessary weight. I was like toying with the idea of what will happen if I delay the surgery and wait for the normal way.
I called up Sid and asked what he feels about it. He told its good to go with what pinni said. By the time I finished speaking, arrangements were made to take me to the hospital. We went to TANVIR as we initially chose to deliver the baby there. It was 5:30pm by then. The doctor came and scanned me again. Suddenly there we could see the moment in the baby and it actually started its journey into the outside world. I was told I would get my pains sooner or later. I was put in a labour room and was under observation. As this was my first time delivery, I was wondering what would be the symptoms of delivery pains. I felt no pain even at 7pm. Doc again came to see me and did an internal examination. She said she can see the babys head and set it in the exact position. I suddenly felt a huge pain surge through my body. I realised I started getting pains. I waited for the contraction frequency to increase. I did so till 10pm or so. But then the ECG machine connected to me to check the babys heart beat started showing abnormal readings. The doctor came inside and told me to be prepared for the surgery. She said my condition was bad even when I came to the hospital, but she just wanted to take a chance at having a normal delivery. But it seemed to be a not so good option as the oxygen levels started depreciating further inside my womb.
All of a sudden I was so frightened at the very thought of a surgery, for, I have never been under the knife before. Even before I could speak to anyone, I was taken into the Operation Theatre (OT). Unfortunately, no one was there except for my brother in law. Everyone went home to have a quick dinner. MOm went home to get blankets, clothes and few things required for my stay in the hospital. I just felt like crying as I did not have anyone I knew around me. Even worst I did not have Sid. But mom told me before leaving that he is on the way. He sensed that there might be a surgery and took a flight. I always told him through out my pregnancy that, I want him to be by my side when i go into labor and I wanted him to cut the chord. But then I did not have him also at that time. I was not sure when he would arrive.
I was given surgical clothes and was asked to change. I changed my clothes and felt so shy to go to the operation table as those clothes were very transparent. It was as good as not wearing anything at all. I actually have overcome that shy feeling in front of the nurses and doctors, thanks to my gynaec visits throughout my pregnancy. But then there was a male anesthetist and a male pediatrician. A nurse came and goaded me to walk to the table. I myself climbed the table. The anesthetist came to me and asked me to sit. He spoke to me about some trivia like what my name was, what I did etc etc. I said all that but at the end of it I said I was very scared at that moment. He assured me that there was nothing to worry and I would feel no pain at all. As he was talking he gave me an injection on my spine without my notice. He tapped me all over below my torso just to check if the anesthesia was working or not. I could feel his touch. I think he then gave a second dose, i am not very sure of that. Then the nurses told me to lie down and covered my tummy with another piece of cloth. Now I could not see anything happening on my tummy. Suddenly my gynaec came out of nowhere and took something (which i am sure is a surgical knife) from the tray the nurse was holding. I realized they were removing clothes from my tummy to make way for the incision to be made. I did not have any sense of touch. I was just waiting for the surgery to begin. Just a minute or two after the doc has come, she finished making an incision and even took out the baby. I could not see the baby properly. I could hear her cry. It was so loud yet seemed to be the sweetest of voices I have ever heard in my life. Even at that point of time when my tummy was cut wide open, i could manage a smile on my face.
And then all of a sudden I was shaking like hell. I felt a chill throughout my body. My hands were shaking rigorously and the anesthetist started talking to me. He held my hand and said everything would be all right. The nurses there gave me a drip.
All this while, the three doctors were constantly talking about everyday issues. I realized it was just an attempt to keep me awake. They did not let me close my eyes even for a moment.
Meanwhile the nurses got busy cleaning the water that broke out of my womb and even the blood leaking. The doctor then stitched me up. And suddenly I could hear the pediatrician shouting to me from some corner in the same room saying that its a baby girl and she is doing absolutely fine. Though I was happy I was slowly losing my consciousness. I remember the nurses putting me on a stretcher and they took me out. When I came out I saw Sid holding the baby and telling me that she is a gorgeous little one. I was happy to see him there . And thats all.
Next when I woke up I was in a post maternity ward. Slowly everyone started visiting me. First it was amma and then B pinni came with my baby. She made her lips touch my cheeks in a gesture of making her kiss me. It was JUST OUT OF THE WORLD. That was the first time that I have seen the baby properly. I just dint feel like letting her go. But the nurses there asked them to leave me and give me rest.
I tried to sleep but could not as the anesthetic effect was weaning and I could feel the pain of the incision on my tummy. It was unbearable. There was a wall clock right in front of me in that room. I literally counted minutes. I waited for an hour or so and asked the nurse to give me pain killers. She said that I have to wait for sometime as its been very little time after the surgery. Finally after sometime....i fell asleep. I was with my baby in my room in the hospital the next I woke up.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Pelvic Muscle pain during pregnancy
I am in my 29th week of pregnancy now. I have been experiencing an excruciating pain in my pelvic floor for the past 2 weeks or so. The pain concentrates mainly near my groin and top of thighs. It is worse after a nights sleep and everyday I wake up with a lot of pain that fades after 10 minutes if I am fortunate. But sometimes it continues for the rest of the day.
I haven't discussed it with my doctor yet as I myself was not able to figure out what it was. I have browsed alot on this topic but there seems to be nothing much on this topic. One thing was clear though. This is quite common during pregnancy as I came through teh posts of many pregnant women with slight modifications in the symptoms.
What is this???
This can be anything from a minor ache to a searing sensation that wraps around your back and snakes down below your burgeoning belly.This is a normal sign that your pelvic girdle is preparing for childbirth.
What causes this???
Your ever-expanding tummy puts ever-increasing stress on the bones, joints, and muscles in your pelvis and back. Pregnancy hormones are relaxing your ligaments, loosening up your pelvic bones so they can shift and open for childbirth.
What you need to know about it???
Pelvic pain occurs in as many as 80 percent of pregnant women at some point, mostly in that final trimester when stress on the pelvic region is especially intense. But pelvic girdle pain can hit at almost any point in the pregnancy, and its impact can range from minor (a few twinges) to debilitating (ouch!!).
What to do for relaxation???
Initially I thought I can not do much about this except for bearing the pain. But I kept on experimenting for figuring out the relaxation techniques. Here are few things which I found were useful.
1. Sleep to your left side with a pillow between your legs.
2. Use a small slender pillow under your belly to support it from falling on to the bed.
3. Take a hot water shower before you go to bed.
4. Use a prenatal tummy belt that not only supports your belly but also reduces the strain it causes on the pelvic area.
5. Ask your huband to massage the upper part of your thighs.
If the pain becomes unbearable, then its time you seek medical attention. This might lead to a condition known as Symphhysis Pubis Dysfunction (SPD). In pregnancy the hormone relaxin is released to soften the joints of pelvic bones in preperation for the birth of your baby, but in some cases the hormone causes the ligaments to soften and stretch too much and become painful. Very rarely, SPD can make a vaginal delivery impossible and your doctor may opt for a C-section instead. And in even rarer cases, SPD can worsen after delivery, requiring medical intervention. But for most moms, once your baby is born, your ligaments will return to normal.
I haven't discussed it with my doctor yet as I myself was not able to figure out what it was. I have browsed alot on this topic but there seems to be nothing much on this topic. One thing was clear though. This is quite common during pregnancy as I came through teh posts of many pregnant women with slight modifications in the symptoms.
What is this???
This can be anything from a minor ache to a searing sensation that wraps around your back and snakes down below your burgeoning belly.This is a normal sign that your pelvic girdle is preparing for childbirth.
What causes this???
Your ever-expanding tummy puts ever-increasing stress on the bones, joints, and muscles in your pelvis and back. Pregnancy hormones are relaxing your ligaments, loosening up your pelvic bones so they can shift and open for childbirth.
What you need to know about it???
Pelvic pain occurs in as many as 80 percent of pregnant women at some point, mostly in that final trimester when stress on the pelvic region is especially intense. But pelvic girdle pain can hit at almost any point in the pregnancy, and its impact can range from minor (a few twinges) to debilitating (ouch!!).
What to do for relaxation???
Initially I thought I can not do much about this except for bearing the pain. But I kept on experimenting for figuring out the relaxation techniques. Here are few things which I found were useful.
1. Sleep to your left side with a pillow between your legs.
2. Use a small slender pillow under your belly to support it from falling on to the bed.
3. Take a hot water shower before you go to bed.
4. Use a prenatal tummy belt that not only supports your belly but also reduces the strain it causes on the pelvic area.
5. Ask your huband to massage the upper part of your thighs.
If the pain becomes unbearable, then its time you seek medical attention. This might lead to a condition known as Symphhysis Pubis Dysfunction (SPD). In pregnancy the hormone relaxin is released to soften the joints of pelvic bones in preperation for the birth of your baby, but in some cases the hormone causes the ligaments to soften and stretch too much and become painful. Very rarely, SPD can make a vaginal delivery impossible and your doctor may opt for a C-section instead. And in even rarer cases, SPD can worsen after delivery, requiring medical intervention. But for most moms, once your baby is born, your ligaments will return to normal.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Entered my Third Trimester
I am always confused with the pregnancy week calculation thing. In the scan report it shows some date, mom tells me some date and doc tells me some date. Its quite confusing.
I always used to think that once 6th month is completed, the third trimester begins. but according to the pregnancy calendar I posted sometime back, I decided to think that I officially entered the trimester.
Congrats Anu for having completed two trimesters successfully. Congrats to baby anu too. How can I miss you??
It is just 11 more weeks to go!!!!!!!!
I always used to think that once 6th month is completed, the third trimester begins. but according to the pregnancy calendar I posted sometime back, I decided to think that I officially entered the trimester.
Congrats Anu for having completed two trimesters successfully. Congrats to baby anu too. How can I miss you??
It is just 11 more weeks to go!!!!!!!!
My Baby Shower
I have been so lazy in updating my blog off late.
I have had my baby shower on 9Th of this month in Hyderabad. That was quite a traditional affair. It went on well. I have earlier attended the baby shower of my sis-in-law but don't really know the concept much. Traditionally speaking, this is celebrated only for the first pregnancy when the delivery happens at maternal place. So the mom-to-be's parents come to her in laws house, give her bangles and chalividi( a dessert made out of rice flour and jaggery) and take her back to her house for delivery. This usually happens in the odd months say 5th, 7th or 9th. Giving bangles is to ward off the evil eye on the growing tummy and chalividi is for the baby's well being. In the 9th month in-laws come to the girls house and give her flowers just to see if she is doing well. For me i am not sure if the second part of the function happens in my ninth month because of traveling constraints.
Mom presented me a rubys set (a necklace and ear rings) and in-laws gave me gold kangan. The baby did not get any gift. She might me awaiting her presents eagerly.
I have got my scanning done again. Unfortunately I did not get to see the baby much this time. Sid had a nice view. She was sucking her thumb and was laughing(may be upon seeing her father) That was such a pleasant thing to see. Just cant wait to see her. I have got my Hb, TSH and OST done all of which show normal results which everyone is happy about. I am now 55 Ks.
Me n S went to the doctor whom i will be going to for my delivery. We found the hospital rooms very hygienic. We are quite OK with it. Doctor too seemed to be very good and spoke well.
We even had our first counselling class (which is supposed to be attended during the third month) there. Most of the details were already known to me but for newbies it is definitely helpful especially to the ones with all those pregnancy fears in mind and having no one to turn to. I was also told few Yoga exercises which i did just for a day. Quite a bad mom. In my regular chore i can hardly fit in some time for Yoga. I wish i could.
I tried not to eat any junk during my Hyd trip but i had my dinner outside once. On my way back to Bangalore i noticed blood in my stools which was very alarming. I just could not sleep for few mights for the fear of having piles. Miraculously all that disappeared even before i visited the doc. But i wanted to confirm that i was doing fine. I visited the doctor last Thursday. She said i have had some food infection and that explains the blood in the stools. One bad news was that she told I had some vaginal infection and prescribed some antibiotics. The course is about to be finished and i feel relaxed. My next visit is due this Thursday.
My weight is increasing but i don't look like that. Tummy is slightly showing up now. I have got around 5 new dresses to wear. Mom is worried i might have an early delivery. I will be travelling to Hyderabad during my 36th week. I am just being optimistic by thinking that it will not happen till i reach Hyderabad. Lets just wait and see. The leg cramps have increased alot. Poor S is massaging my feet every day. Forgot to say one thing, i accidentally bruised my feet two weeks back which became quite a pain later on. Doc said it has got infected. I am taking medicine for that too.
I actually thought of writing the baby shower post along with the pictures. Unfortunately it took me so long. Here is the link for those pics.
I have had my baby shower on 9Th of this month in Hyderabad. That was quite a traditional affair. It went on well. I have earlier attended the baby shower of my sis-in-law but don't really know the concept much. Traditionally speaking, this is celebrated only for the first pregnancy when the delivery happens at maternal place. So the mom-to-be's parents come to her in laws house, give her bangles and chalividi( a dessert made out of rice flour and jaggery) and take her back to her house for delivery. This usually happens in the odd months say 5th, 7th or 9th. Giving bangles is to ward off the evil eye on the growing tummy and chalividi is for the baby's well being. In the 9th month in-laws come to the girls house and give her flowers just to see if she is doing well. For me i am not sure if the second part of the function happens in my ninth month because of traveling constraints.
Mom presented me a rubys set (a necklace and ear rings) and in-laws gave me gold kangan. The baby did not get any gift. She might me awaiting her presents eagerly.
I have got my scanning done again. Unfortunately I did not get to see the baby much this time. Sid had a nice view. She was sucking her thumb and was laughing(may be upon seeing her father) That was such a pleasant thing to see. Just cant wait to see her. I have got my Hb, TSH and OST done all of which show normal results which everyone is happy about. I am now 55 Ks.
Me n S went to the doctor whom i will be going to for my delivery. We found the hospital rooms very hygienic. We are quite OK with it. Doctor too seemed to be very good and spoke well.
We even had our first counselling class (which is supposed to be attended during the third month) there. Most of the details were already known to me but for newbies it is definitely helpful especially to the ones with all those pregnancy fears in mind and having no one to turn to. I was also told few Yoga exercises which i did just for a day. Quite a bad mom. In my regular chore i can hardly fit in some time for Yoga. I wish i could.
I tried not to eat any junk during my Hyd trip but i had my dinner outside once. On my way back to Bangalore i noticed blood in my stools which was very alarming. I just could not sleep for few mights for the fear of having piles. Miraculously all that disappeared even before i visited the doc. But i wanted to confirm that i was doing fine. I visited the doctor last Thursday. She said i have had some food infection and that explains the blood in the stools. One bad news was that she told I had some vaginal infection and prescribed some antibiotics. The course is about to be finished and i feel relaxed. My next visit is due this Thursday.
My weight is increasing but i don't look like that. Tummy is slightly showing up now. I have got around 5 new dresses to wear. Mom is worried i might have an early delivery. I will be travelling to Hyderabad during my 36th week. I am just being optimistic by thinking that it will not happen till i reach Hyderabad. Lets just wait and see. The leg cramps have increased alot. Poor S is massaging my feet every day. Forgot to say one thing, i accidentally bruised my feet two weeks back which became quite a pain later on. Doc said it has got infected. I am taking medicine for that too.
I actually thought of writing the baby shower post along with the pictures. Unfortunately it took me so long. Here is the link for those pics.
My Pregnancy Calendar
| Due date | 12-Sep-08 | Conception | 21-Dec-07 | ||
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Pregnancy Test | 04-Jan-08 | 1st Heart beat | 18-Jan-08 | ||
| Quickening | 11-Apr-08 | Viability | 23-May-08 | ||
| 1st Semester | 2nd Semester | 3rd Semester | |||
| WEEK 1 | 14-Dec-07 | WEEK 15 | 21-Mar-08 | WEEK 29 | 27-Jun-08 |
| WEEK 2 | 21-Dec-08 | WEEK 16 | 28-Mar-08 | WEEK 30 | 04-Jul-08 |
| WEEK 3 | 28-Dec-07 | WEEK 17 | 04-Apr-08 | WEEK 31 | 11-Jul-08 |
| WEEK 4 | 04-Jan-08 | WEEK 18 | 11-Apr-08 | WEEK 32 | 18-Jul-08 |
| WEEK 5 | 11-Jan-08 | WEEK 19 | 18-Apr-08 | WEEK 33 | 25-Jul-08 |
| WEEK 6 | 18-Jan-08 | WEEK 20 | 25-Apr-08 | WEEK 34 | 01-Aug-08 |
| WEEK 7 | 25-Jan-08 | WEEK 21 | 02-May-08 | WEEK 35 | 08-Aug-08 |
| WEEK 8 | 01-Feb-08 | WEEK 22 | 09-May-08 | WEEK 36 | 15-Aug-08 |
| WEEK 9 | 08-Feb-08 | WEEK 23 | 16-May-08 | WEEK 37 | 22-Aug-08 |
| WEEK 10 | 15-Feb-08 | WEEK 24 | 23-May-08 | WEEK 38 | 29-Aug-08 |
| WEEK 11 | 22-Feb-08 | WEEK 25 | 30-May-08 | WEEK 39 | 05-Sep-08 |
| WEEK 12 | 29-Feb-08 | WEEK 26 | 06-Jun-08 | WEEK 40 | 12-Sep-08 |
| WEEK 13 | 07-Mar-08 | WEEK 27 | 13-Jun-08 | WEEK 41 | 19-Sep-08 |
| WEEK 14 | 14-Mar-08 | WEEK 28 | 20-Jun-08 | WEEK 42 | 26-Sep-08 |
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Everything under the sun
This post was actually meant to be written yesterday. So I am writing it as if i wrote it yesterday itself.
Today I am in a very good spirit. I don't know the reason but I am happy. I woke up early as I had some competition in office and got ready soon. The day before I spent most of the time in doing my favorite thing which I have been longing to do since a long time and that is my glass painting. I have painted two pictures, one was done in oil and the other in water colors. I hope my baby will be good at painting. My mind was preoccupied on all thoughts about painting. What to paint, how to paint, where to get the stuff required etc. Now that, that job is done I am off it.
By the way, i have been to the doctor on Saturday and took my last TT injection. This one was a bit painful. To my surprise, I did not cry for the first time. Doctor told me that health is good and the baby is doing fine. I do not require any blood or urine tests this month. Most important is that i gained 3kilos weight. I am now at 54kgs. Credit goes to mom. She has her effort behind every ounce I have put on. I am looking healthy but not fat. I feel quite good about that. Tummy has come out considerably. People started staring at it which makes me feel uncomfortable but I am getting used to it.
Everyone in the office started showing concern to the extent that my manager asked me to sit in a STAND-UP meeting. Surprisingly, it feels good to be in office.
Baby dear's kicking is increasing but it has not displayed its skills to anyone yet. Mom will leave on coming Friday. Wish to show her that. As a matter of fact i myself have never seen it clearly. Its such a naughty brat that it stops moving by the time i get set to look at my tummy.
Things have been not so good in the home front. S has been very busy with office work and is unable to spend quality time with me. Though i can understand his situation, I feel bad about it. There are people who are busier than him and still spend time with the family. If this is becoming one of the major causes of my worries, there are other things which are troubling me.
I will be off to Hyderabad for my delivery and S has showed no willingness to learn something like cooking etc. He is so lazy that he cannot even prepare rice at home. He has to eat either out or at his cousins place for a long period say 3 months or more which is not good.
He still does not understand the pains of pregnancy. He only sees the brighter side of it and thinks everything is fine. He does not even have time to listen to me. He hardly lets me talk and hardly listens to me even if i talk. I feel so frustrated about it. I want him to understand everything. If he cant be of a help to me physically, he can at least try to give me emotional support. He does not do that also. Loving ones better half alone does not make the relation a success. There are many other things involved. When people do not understand this, the relationship would go for a toss. I am quite scared about this as this started happening slowly. Worst still, S cant make out that this is happening.
I have so many things to talk to him. I cannot keep all that shit in my mind and be at peace.
Mom is leaving this Friday. I feel so lonely already. I could not spend much time with her all these days. But she has been a great emotional support to me.
I will miss her badly till i meet her again. I wish she stays with me after her retirement.
We have been to visvesvariah museum on Sunday. That was a great place to be. But I would have enjoyed it had i come during my engineering days. Mom enjoyed it thoroughly. We have gone to commercial street as well and bought 5 dress materials which i think are sufficient till my delivery. I could not buy anything for mom.
Just a heads up, I am in the end of my second trimester :) Yippee i am happy. At the same time, there is a lot of time to see the little one.
I do not think i have any more things to update. Chao till I come back.
Today I am in a very good spirit. I don't know the reason but I am happy. I woke up early as I had some competition in office and got ready soon. The day before I spent most of the time in doing my favorite thing which I have been longing to do since a long time and that is my glass painting. I have painted two pictures, one was done in oil and the other in water colors. I hope my baby will be good at painting. My mind was preoccupied on all thoughts about painting. What to paint, how to paint, where to get the stuff required etc. Now that, that job is done I am off it.
By the way, i have been to the doctor on Saturday and took my last TT injection. This one was a bit painful. To my surprise, I did not cry for the first time. Doctor told me that health is good and the baby is doing fine. I do not require any blood or urine tests this month. Most important is that i gained 3kilos weight. I am now at 54kgs. Credit goes to mom. She has her effort behind every ounce I have put on. I am looking healthy but not fat. I feel quite good about that. Tummy has come out considerably. People started staring at it which makes me feel uncomfortable but I am getting used to it.
Everyone in the office started showing concern to the extent that my manager asked me to sit in a STAND-UP meeting. Surprisingly, it feels good to be in office.
Baby dear's kicking is increasing but it has not displayed its skills to anyone yet. Mom will leave on coming Friday. Wish to show her that. As a matter of fact i myself have never seen it clearly. Its such a naughty brat that it stops moving by the time i get set to look at my tummy.
Things have been not so good in the home front. S has been very busy with office work and is unable to spend quality time with me. Though i can understand his situation, I feel bad about it. There are people who are busier than him and still spend time with the family. If this is becoming one of the major causes of my worries, there are other things which are troubling me.
I will be off to Hyderabad for my delivery and S has showed no willingness to learn something like cooking etc. He is so lazy that he cannot even prepare rice at home. He has to eat either out or at his cousins place for a long period say 3 months or more which is not good.
He still does not understand the pains of pregnancy. He only sees the brighter side of it and thinks everything is fine. He does not even have time to listen to me. He hardly lets me talk and hardly listens to me even if i talk. I feel so frustrated about it. I want him to understand everything. If he cant be of a help to me physically, he can at least try to give me emotional support. He does not do that also. Loving ones better half alone does not make the relation a success. There are many other things involved. When people do not understand this, the relationship would go for a toss. I am quite scared about this as this started happening slowly. Worst still, S cant make out that this is happening.
I have so many things to talk to him. I cannot keep all that shit in my mind and be at peace.
Mom is leaving this Friday. I feel so lonely already. I could not spend much time with her all these days. But she has been a great emotional support to me.
I will miss her badly till i meet her again. I wish she stays with me after her retirement.
We have been to visvesvariah museum on Sunday. That was a great place to be. But I would have enjoyed it had i come during my engineering days. Mom enjoyed it thoroughly. We have gone to commercial street as well and bought 5 dress materials which i think are sufficient till my delivery. I could not buy anything for mom.
Just a heads up, I am in the end of my second trimester :) Yippee i am happy. At the same time, there is a lot of time to see the little one.
I do not think i have any more things to update. Chao till I come back.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Peek In
It has been a while since there are any posts from me. There are actually many things that have happened. The reason for my hiatus being work pressure in office. But, i guess i would update few of them if not everything.
We have bought a car (Hyundai I-10) on May 15th. It coincided with my hubby's birthday. Even though he says it is for my comfort, you can clearly make out that it is for his baby. What a doting father!!!! I did not get to ride in it due to our never matching work schedules. He still makes an effort to drop me to office.
The baby is doing quite well. Its kicks, flutters etc have increased considerably. I usually feel and see the kicks after my lunch and dinner. These days it is active during my morning snack time(10:30 - 11) as well as noon snack time(3:30 - 4pm)
I have been trying to eat all sorts of healthy food like vegetables, nuts, fruits etc. I am even eating bittergourd very much. I have a penchant for that yummy vegetable. I want my baby also to like it. I am trying to get S used to it. I have heard that the baby likes all the food its mom ate when it was in her womb. I dont really know how far it is true but I am just trying.
I think i am able to figure out the foods it does not like. It kicks and moves alot when I eat hot and spicy food. It does not like tea also. I hope it like the bitter gourd. I usually do not have any problem in eating any type of vegetarian food. Hope my baby is also like that. I drink lots of milk so that i do not ahve any problem in getting to make her drin milk when she grows up. I have a niece who hates milk just like her mother.
I came to know that MOTHERCARE is also in bangalore. I plan to get an abdomen support from there. I am hardly six months pregnant and i already have a lot of muscle pain in my abdomen. I also want to buy some maternity clothing there.
I am already done with planning my maternity leave. If all goes well, I will go on leave from 18th of August which is exactly 4 weeks before my due date. After that i will break my leave for few days and opt for LOP for probably 3 months. It will be mid of Jan by then. The baby will be just 4 months old. I do not know how i will manage with it at that time. S did not give much thought about it. He needs to understand that it is very important. We are yet to decide whow we will manage the finances during that period. Now that we have a car loan and baby will also join us at that time, we need to do some serious planning.
I am getting tired very easily these days and hence am unable to spend much time with the baby. But I am properly enjoying its kicks and movements.
I never had any interest in designing clothes. Surprisingly, I have developed a keen interest in observing baby clothes and I started sketching teh designs myself. Oh baby, you have a great amma.
More in my next post.
We have bought a car (Hyundai I-10) on May 15th. It coincided with my hubby's birthday. Even though he says it is for my comfort, you can clearly make out that it is for his baby. What a doting father!!!! I did not get to ride in it due to our never matching work schedules. He still makes an effort to drop me to office.
The baby is doing quite well. Its kicks, flutters etc have increased considerably. I usually feel and see the kicks after my lunch and dinner. These days it is active during my morning snack time(10:30 - 11) as well as noon snack time(3:30 - 4pm)
I have been trying to eat all sorts of healthy food like vegetables, nuts, fruits etc. I am even eating bittergourd very much. I have a penchant for that yummy vegetable. I want my baby also to like it. I am trying to get S used to it. I have heard that the baby likes all the food its mom ate when it was in her womb. I dont really know how far it is true but I am just trying.
I think i am able to figure out the foods it does not like. It kicks and moves alot when I eat hot and spicy food. It does not like tea also. I hope it like the bitter gourd. I usually do not have any problem in eating any type of vegetarian food. Hope my baby is also like that. I drink lots of milk so that i do not ahve any problem in getting to make her drin milk when she grows up. I have a niece who hates milk just like her mother.
I came to know that MOTHERCARE is also in bangalore. I plan to get an abdomen support from there. I am hardly six months pregnant and i already have a lot of muscle pain in my abdomen. I also want to buy some maternity clothing there.
I am already done with planning my maternity leave. If all goes well, I will go on leave from 18th of August which is exactly 4 weeks before my due date. After that i will break my leave for few days and opt for LOP for probably 3 months. It will be mid of Jan by then. The baby will be just 4 months old. I do not know how i will manage with it at that time. S did not give much thought about it. He needs to understand that it is very important. We are yet to decide whow we will manage the finances during that period. Now that we have a car loan and baby will also join us at that time, we need to do some serious planning.
I am getting tired very easily these days and hence am unable to spend much time with the baby. But I am properly enjoying its kicks and movements.
I never had any interest in designing clothes. Surprisingly, I have developed a keen interest in observing baby clothes and I started sketching teh designs myself. Oh baby, you have a great amma.
More in my next post.
Friday, May 9, 2008
your first kick show
Hello bujji thalli (elongated version of bulli)
I have been over excited about the number of posts in the previous month and then i dint get back again. Sorry about that.
I am very happy today. I have SEEN your kick yesterday morning and many times today. I have been dying to write this post but some how delayed doing that.
I just cant tell you how happy I am. I felt as happy as I saw you in flesh. At first I thought its just any other daily moments of yours. But I felt the kick right on top of my stomach. It started at the center of my navel and extended towards the end of my tummy. I could not make out if it was your leg or hand. I later felt my tummy bulge unevenly. Then I understood that you might have moved from right to left of my tummy and slept with your head in the right side with your legs stretched if there is really any place left. I know its pretty uncomfortable in there (size constraint) but it is a matter of few more months. Kindly adjust.
As soon as I experienced this, I could not withstand the happiness within myself. I called up your ammumma and naanna. Both of them were equally overwhelmed. They too wished they could see your kick. We shall show them your stunts soon okay.
Naanna spoke to you for a long time yesterday night. He was very happy. He gave you many kisses. Do you remember anything that he spoke? Amumma has also been talking to you alot these days. Your pinni keeps asking about you everyday. They all love you so much.
By the way, I have finally got my anomaly scan done yesterday in wockhardt. You gave a tough time to the radiologist (Dr. Amitha) You have been moving constantly as if you knew that we were watching you. Though all the sacan angles were not satisfactory, we were lucky enough to have a good glimpse of your face (side view). Ammumma might have looked at that scan picture a thousand times. I shall show that scan picture to you once you are born.
Every one is very eager for your healthy arrival. Please eat properly and manage to pass your time till you come out. Meanwhile we will keep you busy by talking, reading stories to you etc. Did I tell you that naanna has got a book on human history for you? I have got a book on Vedic maths. we do not really know what things interest you, but we will try our best to get you the things you like. Naanna wants to see you as an astronaut or as a Tennis player. I want you to learn dance, music, arts, everything.
I plan to learn some lullabies by the time you are born so that I can put you to sleep. It is just that I am embarrassed to go to some music school or ask someone to teach me those. Your amma's voice is not that good.
Sare more kaburlu in my next post.
I have been over excited about the number of posts in the previous month and then i dint get back again. Sorry about that.
I am very happy today. I have SEEN your kick yesterday morning and many times today. I have been dying to write this post but some how delayed doing that.
I just cant tell you how happy I am. I felt as happy as I saw you in flesh. At first I thought its just any other daily moments of yours. But I felt the kick right on top of my stomach. It started at the center of my navel and extended towards the end of my tummy. I could not make out if it was your leg or hand. I later felt my tummy bulge unevenly. Then I understood that you might have moved from right to left of my tummy and slept with your head in the right side with your legs stretched if there is really any place left. I know its pretty uncomfortable in there (size constraint) but it is a matter of few more months. Kindly adjust.
As soon as I experienced this, I could not withstand the happiness within myself. I called up your ammumma and naanna. Both of them were equally overwhelmed. They too wished they could see your kick. We shall show them your stunts soon okay.
Naanna spoke to you for a long time yesterday night. He was very happy. He gave you many kisses. Do you remember anything that he spoke? Amumma has also been talking to you alot these days. Your pinni keeps asking about you everyday. They all love you so much.
By the way, I have finally got my anomaly scan done yesterday in wockhardt. You gave a tough time to the radiologist (Dr. Amitha) You have been moving constantly as if you knew that we were watching you. Though all the sacan angles were not satisfactory, we were lucky enough to have a good glimpse of your face (side view). Ammumma might have looked at that scan picture a thousand times. I shall show that scan picture to you once you are born.
Every one is very eager for your healthy arrival. Please eat properly and manage to pass your time till you come out. Meanwhile we will keep you busy by talking, reading stories to you etc. Did I tell you that naanna has got a book on human history for you? I have got a book on Vedic maths. we do not really know what things interest you, but we will try our best to get you the things you like. Naanna wants to see you as an astronaut or as a Tennis player. I want you to learn dance, music, arts, everything.
I plan to learn some lullabies by the time you are born so that I can put you to sleep. It is just that I am embarrassed to go to some music school or ask someone to teach me those. Your amma's voice is not that good.
Sare more kaburlu in my next post.
Friday, May 2, 2008
Just a hello
Hi Bulli. This is how your pinni calls you. I used to call your Mayu akka 'buddi' when she was small. When i first saw her, 1 day after she was born, she looked so tiny that i gave her that name instantaneously. I like the name bulli also.I wanted to search for Japanese names as they are very cute. I thought of a name AIKO but it was too alien a name for a baby born with Indian origin. Neither your naanna nor your ammumma liked it. We did not yet start thinking about your final name as such. The names I come up with now are nick names. Anyways you would finally end up having many nick names mostly given by your amma as she herself had many names.
Finally, i found a nice doctor close to our house. It is hardly 3kms. I am very happy that i found one at last. I did not like the hospital premises much but quite OK with the doctor. You are doing perfectly fine. Everything looks very normal. I got my first TT injection. Two more injections are due. I have to get an anomaly scan done next Friday or Saturday. I plan to go to wockhardt for that. Yet to fix up an appointment. Eagerly looking forward as I will get a chance to see you again.
I just spoke with naanna. He was amazed to know how close I am to sixth month. It just went so fast. We did not even realize. There is a surprise for you mostly tomorrow or else on Sunday............keep guessing kanna.
Finally, i found a nice doctor close to our house. It is hardly 3kms. I am very happy that i found one at last. I did not like the hospital premises much but quite OK with the doctor. You are doing perfectly fine. Everything looks very normal. I got my first TT injection. Two more injections are due. I have to get an anomaly scan done next Friday or Saturday. I plan to go to wockhardt for that. Yet to fix up an appointment. Eagerly looking forward as I will get a chance to see you again.
I just spoke with naanna. He was amazed to know how close I am to sixth month. It just went so fast. We did not even realize. There is a surprise for you mostly tomorrow or else on Sunday............keep guessing kanna.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Record!!!!!!!
This is the first time that I have written more than 10 posts in a month. I know it is very insignificant for people who are very much into blogging. For people who rarely open their blogs, it is a feat. My earlier record in my other blog stands at a maximum of 7 posts per month. It is 12 posts in this month here. This is my 13th.
Way to go Annu. This is kind of self motivation for me. I will have to beat my own record in future.
By the way, my dear kanna thalli, amma has cleared a big exam related to her profession. She has scored a good 82%. She is very happy ra.
Way to go Annu. This is kind of self motivation for me. I will have to beat my own record in future.
By the way, my dear kanna thalli, amma has cleared a big exam related to her profession. She has scored a good 82%. She is very happy ra.
All about kicks and movements
I have felt my baby's movements first during the beginning of my 18th week. It was a very faint movement. I was not even sure if it was THAT movement or if it was due to some flatulence inside. After that did not feel its movements for quite sometime. And now I started feeling , not regularly though, the movements. But surprisingly, without anybody confirming it, i am sure that its the baby.
I have read in some baby site about kick counts. These are usually recommended for high risk pregnancies but all pregnant women may benefit from counting their baby’s movements. Kick counts are done every day, starting in the 28th week or sixth month of pregnancy. Being attentive to the baby’s movements will help us notice any significant changes, identify potential problems, and prevent stillbirth.
I do not really know if it is going to help, but I feel there is nothing wrong in doing so. I am going to do it myself probably form my 26th week. I will keep track of it in one post itself.
I am writing about how to do kick counts and all in this post itself so that I might come back and refer to it in future. This is purely a copy paste thing from a baby site.
When to do kick counts
Choose the same time each day to do kick counts. This should be a time of the day when your baby is very active. You may find that your baby is more active:
*after you have exercised
*after you have eaten
*after you have drank something cold
*sometimes, between the hours of 9 pm and 1 pm, when your blood sugar is decreasing
How to do kick counts
Begin by finding a comfortable position, perhaps sitting with a good back rest, or lying on your side. Lying on your left side allows for good circulation, which could lead to your baby becoming more active.
Record your start time in a notebook. Make a checkmark or "X" for each time your baby kicks, swishes, rolls, or jabs. After recording 10 such movements, write down the time again. Ideally, you should feel at least 10 movements in two hours. Most likely, you will feel 10 movements in a shorter time period. Look out for any significant changes in your baby’s movement pattern over a few days. Continue to record kick counts daily for the rest of your pregnancy.
When to call your health care provider
If you do not feel 10 movements within a two-hour time period, wait a few hours and try again. If you still do not feel 10 movements in two hours, call your health care provider.
Also, if you notice a significant change from your baby’s kick count pattern over three to four days, call your health care provider. An example of a significant change is as follows:
*Monday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 10:45 am, total 45 minutes
*Tuesday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 11:00 am, total 1 hour
*Wednesday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 11:10 am, total 1 hour 10 minutes
*Thursday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 12:30 pm, total 2 hours 30 minutes
You know your body best. If you feel something is wrong, call your health care provider.
I have read in some baby site about kick counts. These are usually recommended for high risk pregnancies but all pregnant women may benefit from counting their baby’s movements. Kick counts are done every day, starting in the 28th week or sixth month of pregnancy. Being attentive to the baby’s movements will help us notice any significant changes, identify potential problems, and prevent stillbirth.
I do not really know if it is going to help, but I feel there is nothing wrong in doing so. I am going to do it myself probably form my 26th week. I will keep track of it in one post itself.
I am writing about how to do kick counts and all in this post itself so that I might come back and refer to it in future. This is purely a copy paste thing from a baby site.
When to do kick counts
Choose the same time each day to do kick counts. This should be a time of the day when your baby is very active. You may find that your baby is more active:
*after you have exercised
*after you have eaten
*after you have drank something cold
*sometimes, between the hours of 9 pm and 1 pm, when your blood sugar is decreasing
How to do kick counts
Begin by finding a comfortable position, perhaps sitting with a good back rest, or lying on your side. Lying on your left side allows for good circulation, which could lead to your baby becoming more active.
Record your start time in a notebook. Make a checkmark or "X" for each time your baby kicks, swishes, rolls, or jabs. After recording 10 such movements, write down the time again. Ideally, you should feel at least 10 movements in two hours. Most likely, you will feel 10 movements in a shorter time period. Look out for any significant changes in your baby’s movement pattern over a few days. Continue to record kick counts daily for the rest of your pregnancy.
When to call your health care provider
If you do not feel 10 movements within a two-hour time period, wait a few hours and try again. If you still do not feel 10 movements in two hours, call your health care provider.
Also, if you notice a significant change from your baby’s kick count pattern over three to four days, call your health care provider. An example of a significant change is as follows:
*Monday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 10:45 am, total 45 minutes
*Tuesday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 11:00 am, total 1 hour
*Wednesday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 11:10 am, total 1 hour 10 minutes
*Thursday 10:00 am XXXXXXXXXX 12:30 pm, total 2 hours 30 minutes
You know your body best. If you feel something is wrong, call your health care provider.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
First letter to baby Anu
You are still lying happily inside my tummy and you already has a visitor / caretaker. Your ammumma has come yesterday to be with us for at least a month. All this is just to take care of yet-to-be-born you. We will stay with her for a good amount of time after you will be born.
Me and your naanna went to the railway station to pick her up. As such i got late to office. It was around 8pm that i could make it to home. By that time, I was totally exhausted. My feet were swollen and numb. I could barely walk. I could not speak much with ammumma. She only prepared the dinner.
She has got saris for me and atha. She showed me those saris. After that we had a long discussion on where to deliver you. I would be seeing 2 to 3 hospitals for that purpose when we go to thaatha's place in June. You have a wonderful thaatha in Hyderabad.
These days I feel totally enervated by the time i hit the sack and i am not talking to you at all. Sorry kanna.
By the way, did i tell you about your two aunties. You have two aunties, Debu auntie and Div auntie. Debu auntie commented that you are my puppy. She seems to be very eager to see you. You will like both of them alot. They are my best friends. It was Div aunty's birthday three days ago. I could not even wish her. That was partly because of my laziness and partly because of my non-functioning mobile. But, i would like to blame myself entirely for that. Hope she has had a great time.
Do you know something? There is not even a single day when i do not feel like seeing you and thinking about you. As I cannot see you now, I keep watching many baby sites to visualize you. You are 20weeks and 4 days old in my tummy as per doctors dates. As per my calculation, you are 18weeks and 3 days old. You are about 7inches long. Your heart is properly formed and is functioning really well. I heard your heart beat during my last scan. You can now hear all the sounds inside my body. You started swallowing things around you. You are constantly swimming in the water. I cannot tell you how happy I am and how eager I am to see you. Love you loads ra chitti thalli.
Me and your naanna went to the railway station to pick her up. As such i got late to office. It was around 8pm that i could make it to home. By that time, I was totally exhausted. My feet were swollen and numb. I could barely walk. I could not speak much with ammumma. She only prepared the dinner.
She has got saris for me and atha. She showed me those saris. After that we had a long discussion on where to deliver you. I would be seeing 2 to 3 hospitals for that purpose when we go to thaatha's place in June. You have a wonderful thaatha in Hyderabad.
These days I feel totally enervated by the time i hit the sack and i am not talking to you at all. Sorry kanna.
By the way, did i tell you about your two aunties. You have two aunties, Debu auntie and Div auntie. Debu auntie commented that you are my puppy. She seems to be very eager to see you. You will like both of them alot. They are my best friends. It was Div aunty's birthday three days ago. I could not even wish her. That was partly because of my laziness and partly because of my non-functioning mobile. But, i would like to blame myself entirely for that. Hope she has had a great time.
Do you know something? There is not even a single day when i do not feel like seeing you and thinking about you. As I cannot see you now, I keep watching many baby sites to visualize you. You are 20weeks and 4 days old in my tummy as per doctors dates. As per my calculation, you are 18weeks and 3 days old. You are about 7inches long. Your heart is properly formed and is functioning really well. I heard your heart beat during my last scan. You can now hear all the sounds inside my body. You started swallowing things around you. You are constantly swimming in the water. I cannot tell you how happy I am and how eager I am to see you. Love you loads ra chitti thalli.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Dreams -2
I do not remember last night’s dream. I had a good playback of it as soon as I woke up. It kind of evaporated form my mind. I vaguely remember it in bits and pieces.
First thing I an recollect from my dream........I was in so much pain that I could not sleep. I almost thought that the dream was real. I was bleeding profusely. I do not know how my baby is doing. It is still in my stomach. I desperately want to see it but no one is helping me.
Next shot I can recollect is that I am constipating and struggling hard to poop. Mom is shouting from somewhere not to strain myself. Even the baby started crying and told me that I am putting so much pressure on her that it is getting difficult for her to breathe. I did not know what to do.
Next shot, I am playing in the air with my baby. We are levitating and are flowing with the wind.
This does not make much sense. Does not make any sense in fact. But I just wanted to make a note of it in my blog.
First thing I an recollect from my dream........I was in so much pain that I could not sleep. I almost thought that the dream was real. I was bleeding profusely. I do not know how my baby is doing. It is still in my stomach. I desperately want to see it but no one is helping me.
Next shot I can recollect is that I am constipating and struggling hard to poop. Mom is shouting from somewhere not to strain myself. Even the baby started crying and told me that I am putting so much pressure on her that it is getting difficult for her to breathe. I did not know what to do.
Next shot, I am playing in the air with my baby. We are levitating and are flowing with the wind.
This does not make much sense. Does not make any sense in fact. But I just wanted to make a note of it in my blog.
Appointment problem
I have faced all the trouble I can in getting an appointment(in my convenient time) in Bangalore corporate hospitals. I have had enough of it till now. I am exhausted.
The very purpose of the existence of these corporate hospitals is to provide world class facilities to the patients and be patient friendly.
When I first knew I am expecting, me and S wanted to visit the best of the hospitals for our baby’s sake. We freezed upon Wockhard hospital as that being the best and closest hospital to my house. We actually were thinking about a long term relationship with it. I mean I wanted to deliver my baby there itself. We, at that time, did not know the troubles that awaited us there.
I being working women never managed to come out of office before 5pm. So I wanted an appointment sometime after 6pm. Another constraint I had was that I wanted to meet only one doctor for every visit.
The constraints they had from their side was that the doctor will be there only 3 days a week and that too from 4 -6pm. Weekends, when it is the most convenient for working women, are a holiday to all the doctors and staff. They do not care even if its an emergency. And one more drawback is that your doctor will not be seeing you in your every visit. There will be few subordinates to her, fresh out of college house surgeon students, who see you and decide if you can see the doctor or not(in which case you will end up not seeing your doctor most of the times).
I am ill for the past 5 days and desperately in need of a doctor. I did not want to turn to any corporate hospitals this time. One of my friend suggested me that I go to Gunasheela hospital which is a very famous maternity hospital here. When I called up to take the appointment, the receptionist told me that there are no slots vacant today and the nearest possible slot is JUST 1 WEEK away from now. This is in spite of my hinting her that I am not well and is expecting. What are these hospitals for? What is their motto? Do they ever think about the very purpose of their existence? Do they care about the patients? What would they do if there is an emergency case? All these questions were flooding my mind to which I guess there is none to answer.
I finally decided to go to a small clinic where doctor is available everyday. Hope this experience turns out to be good. More on this in my next post.
The very purpose of the existence of these corporate hospitals is to provide world class facilities to the patients and be patient friendly.
When I first knew I am expecting, me and S wanted to visit the best of the hospitals for our baby’s sake. We freezed upon Wockhard hospital as that being the best and closest hospital to my house. We actually were thinking about a long term relationship with it. I mean I wanted to deliver my baby there itself. We, at that time, did not know the troubles that awaited us there.
I being working women never managed to come out of office before 5pm. So I wanted an appointment sometime after 6pm. Another constraint I had was that I wanted to meet only one doctor for every visit.
The constraints they had from their side was that the doctor will be there only 3 days a week and that too from 4 -6pm. Weekends, when it is the most convenient for working women, are a holiday to all the doctors and staff. They do not care even if its an emergency. And one more drawback is that your doctor will not be seeing you in your every visit. There will be few subordinates to her, fresh out of college house surgeon students, who see you and decide if you can see the doctor or not(in which case you will end up not seeing your doctor most of the times).
I am ill for the past 5 days and desperately in need of a doctor. I did not want to turn to any corporate hospitals this time. One of my friend suggested me that I go to Gunasheela hospital which is a very famous maternity hospital here. When I called up to take the appointment, the receptionist told me that there are no slots vacant today and the nearest possible slot is JUST 1 WEEK away from now. This is in spite of my hinting her that I am not well and is expecting. What are these hospitals for? What is their motto? Do they ever think about the very purpose of their existence? Do they care about the patients? What would they do if there is an emergency case? All these questions were flooding my mind to which I guess there is none to answer.
I finally decided to go to a small clinic where doctor is available everyday. Hope this experience turns out to be good. More on this in my next post.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Feelings - 2
I just came face to face with a colleague of mine. She too happens to be in her fifth month of pregnancy. Just a look at her bump made me worry about my baby.
All the scans results indicate that the baby is doing really fine. But i cannot notice any visible change in my tummy size. So many people keep asking me about this. They will put a puckered face when they come to know that i am in last week of my fifth month. This is causing a lot of worry.
Mom says that i need not take it to heart but i just cant help doing it. She says there are people whose tummy just does not show up even during their 8th month. But they deliver healthy babies. I don't really know if she tells me this just for solace but i hope it is true.
I did not even start feeling the movements of the baby:(
Baby dear.............please just show up to me if not to the world. Love you loads.
All the scans results indicate that the baby is doing really fine. But i cannot notice any visible change in my tummy size. So many people keep asking me about this. They will put a puckered face when they come to know that i am in last week of my fifth month. This is causing a lot of worry.
Mom says that i need not take it to heart but i just cant help doing it. She says there are people whose tummy just does not show up even during their 8th month. But they deliver healthy babies. I don't really know if she tells me this just for solace but i hope it is true.
I did not even start feeling the movements of the baby:(
Baby dear.............please just show up to me if not to the world. Love you loads.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Stats just for record
This is just to keep track of every possible detail for future reference.
| Month 1 | Month 5 | |
|---|---|---|
| Vital Stats | 32 – 26 - 34 | 34 – 30 - 34 |
| Weight | 46 | 48.2 |
Feelings - 1
I am around 18 weeks pregnant by now. I have been experiencing different kinds of stomach aches in different areas of my stomach off late. I have told this to a gynaec during my last visit. She did not do any internal examination but has said that this could lead to preterm labor (which actually sounded weird) She did not even tell me why it is happening. Though i told mom that i took this casually, every time i get the pain i am cringing with fear.
I sometimes feel a pulling sensation around my navel. Sometimes it would be a sharp pain in any of the sides of the stomach. It is a pinching sensation low in my stomach. It is not excruciating but painful enough that I cant help noticing it. I feel a stretching sensation many times.
I have still not decided upon my local gyneac and am very eager to share this with someone who can help me. All the docs i have encountered till date have not been satisfactory. I feel quite helpless.
Mom takes things very seriously especially when it comes to me. S can not empathize with me. I cannot share it with anyone. I am in a unhappy mood today and feel like crying.
I wonder if i am becoming a hypochondriac. But i think almost 90% of the first-time-mothers with no family around will have the same feelings. Even with the slightest of the change in your body, you will be frightened and worried. It is more of a worry about the baby's well being than yours.
I just keep wishing that this painful phase would pass off as early as it can. I just hope everything is fine with me and my baby.
I sometimes feel a pulling sensation around my navel. Sometimes it would be a sharp pain in any of the sides of the stomach. It is a pinching sensation low in my stomach. It is not excruciating but painful enough that I cant help noticing it. I feel a stretching sensation many times.
I have still not decided upon my local gyneac and am very eager to share this with someone who can help me. All the docs i have encountered till date have not been satisfactory. I feel quite helpless.
Mom takes things very seriously especially when it comes to me. S can not empathize with me. I cannot share it with anyone. I am in a unhappy mood today and feel like crying.
I wonder if i am becoming a hypochondriac. But i think almost 90% of the first-time-mothers with no family around will have the same feelings. Even with the slightest of the change in your body, you will be frightened and worried. It is more of a worry about the baby's well being than yours.
I just keep wishing that this painful phase would pass off as early as it can. I just hope everything is fine with me and my baby.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Eureka........one problem solved
I visited a gynaecologist during my Hyd trip as i did not see a doctor after my 1st month checkup. One more reason was that we were trying to zero in on one doctor and hospital where i can deliver the baby. The delivery rooms were a put off. I spoke to the doctor about all the doubts i had. Her answers were not satisfactory. It took no time for me to realize that she is not the one.
I had this problem of stuffy nose right from my first month. She replied like a deadpan and said that pregnancy is not the reason for this. Recently, as i was going through baby sites, i came to know few interesting facts about stuffy nose.
A runny or stuffed-up nose without any other cold symptoms is a common condition during pregnancy. Some women feel as if they have a cold throughout the whole nine months. This condition has a name -- allergic rhinitis of pregnancy. Unfortunately there is no cure. But we can do certain things for relief. Something like inhaling steam, having a hot shower before bed may help relieve congestion and sooth us. I started having showers before sleep. Its working.
One more problem i encountered is "Dry Skin". I have an oily skin and usually use very little moisturizer. Since my second month it has become the opposite. I am finding it extremely difficult to tackle this problem.
I already started getting stretch marks on my tummy and thighs. I will have to think about this as well.
***********This post is yet to be eidted and more to be written
I had this problem of stuffy nose right from my first month. She replied like a deadpan and said that pregnancy is not the reason for this. Recently, as i was going through baby sites, i came to know few interesting facts about stuffy nose.
A runny or stuffed-up nose without any other cold symptoms is a common condition during pregnancy. Some women feel as if they have a cold throughout the whole nine months. This condition has a name -- allergic rhinitis of pregnancy. Unfortunately there is no cure. But we can do certain things for relief. Something like inhaling steam, having a hot shower before bed may help relieve congestion and sooth us. I started having showers before sleep. Its working.
One more problem i encountered is "Dry Skin". I have an oily skin and usually use very little moisturizer. Since my second month it has become the opposite. I am finding it extremely difficult to tackle this problem.
I already started getting stretch marks on my tummy and thighs. I will have to think about this as well.
***********This post is yet to be eidted and more to be written
Cat is out of the bag now!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been to Hyderabad over this weekend. That was a hectic trip but an important one i must say.
We have visited all the important persons there. Though we took some time to purchase what mom wanted to buy for me, i could not do any of my shopping. And i was not happy about it.
We made our official trip to B pinni's clinic and got my scan done. She has got a 3D scan machine this time and gave me the privilege of having my scan on it first.
I always doubt if i am pregnant at all until i get the scan done and see the baby. I was very happy this time that everyone (mom, sis, FIL and even S). I could see that glow on S's face. Everybody present there were stuck to the monitor and watched each and every moment of the baby with utmost concentration. Everything in the sonogram would be meaningless to the untrained eye. But B pinni was very patient to explain every part of the baby.
"Wow! Is that its fingers?"
"No, that's its legs."
"Oh. Is that its face?"
"No, that's its bum."
"Oh. The baby has got a round face. It must be resembling its mom"
"Oh what a long feet!!!!!"
We could clearly see its spinal cord, heart, face, hands, legs, fingers and stomach.
(Though the sonogram was showing that i am 17weeks and 2 days pregnant, B pinni told me that baby must have completed approximately 17 weeks.)
We did not want to know the sex of our baby. But it was out after a day. We were happy and at the same time disappointed as the excitement burst out so early.
No..........i am not going to let the cat out of the bag here. You people will have to wait for some more time. I was surprised to know the result. Surprised because the dream i have got few weeks before came true. And i am still not able to believe it.
I have already started searching for names for my little one. I want it to have a Japanese name as the nick name. It would be great if S agrees to make that name its official one. I have stated talking to my "bump" though it may sound stupid for some people. S wants his baby to be an astronaut. I want it to learn dance, music, tennis, painting martial arts. I do not want to rub our feelings on to it. It should have its own vision.
I have bought books on vedic maths. S has started collecting comics already :)
We have visited all the important persons there. Though we took some time to purchase what mom wanted to buy for me, i could not do any of my shopping. And i was not happy about it.
We made our official trip to B pinni's clinic and got my scan done. She has got a 3D scan machine this time and gave me the privilege of having my scan on it first.
I always doubt if i am pregnant at all until i get the scan done and see the baby. I was very happy this time that everyone (mom, sis, FIL and even S). I could see that glow on S's face. Everybody present there were stuck to the monitor and watched each and every moment of the baby with utmost concentration. Everything in the sonogram would be meaningless to the untrained eye. But B pinni was very patient to explain every part of the baby.
"Wow! Is that its fingers?"
"No, that's its legs."
"Oh. Is that its face?"
"No, that's its bum."
"Oh. The baby has got a round face. It must be resembling its mom"
"Oh what a long feet!!!!!"
We could clearly see its spinal cord, heart, face, hands, legs, fingers and stomach.
(Though the sonogram was showing that i am 17weeks and 2 days pregnant, B pinni told me that baby must have completed approximately 17 weeks.)
We did not want to know the sex of our baby. But it was out after a day. We were happy and at the same time disappointed as the excitement burst out so early.
No..........i am not going to let the cat out of the bag here. You people will have to wait for some more time. I was surprised to know the result. Surprised because the dream i have got few weeks before came true. And i am still not able to believe it.
I have already started searching for names for my little one. I want it to have a Japanese name as the nick name. It would be great if S agrees to make that name its official one. I have stated talking to my "bump" though it may sound stupid for some people. S wants his baby to be an astronaut. I want it to learn dance, music, tennis, painting martial arts. I do not want to rub our feelings on to it. It should have its own vision.
I have bought books on vedic maths. S has started collecting comics already :)
Dreams.............weird
I have had this weird dream sometime back. I wanted to record it somehow.
I was sleeping innocently. Suddenly in the middle of the night i woke up for no reason and after sometime i got labour pains. No one was there around. I opened my stomach and took out the baby. It was a baby girl. I showed it S first. He sneered and did not come forward to take the baby just because it was a girl. The baby was quite disappointed at this. I told the baby that even if no one loves it, i love it more than anybody else in this world. After sometime, S too felt the same love for her and came forward and caressed the baby.
I do not know what this dream meant, but it occurred very unnatural to me. I immediately woke up my husband and told him all about this. He placated me saying that he does not care about the gender and will be happy with any child we get. I slept peacefully after that.
I was sleeping innocently. Suddenly in the middle of the night i woke up for no reason and after sometime i got labour pains. No one was there around. I opened my stomach and took out the baby. It was a baby girl. I showed it S first. He sneered and did not come forward to take the baby just because it was a girl. The baby was quite disappointed at this. I told the baby that even if no one loves it, i love it more than anybody else in this world. After sometime, S too felt the same love for her and came forward and caressed the baby.
I do not know what this dream meant, but it occurred very unnatural to me. I immediately woke up my husband and told him all about this. He placated me saying that he does not care about the gender and will be happy with any child we get. I slept peacefully after that.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
My First Trimester
By the time i came to know about my pregnancy, i was half way through my first trimester. This is the case with most of the ladies. In this nuclear age no female has got time to take care about herself. I feel its better if we get to know a little early as we can start taking all the care we should for the well being of the baby.
We are not actually pregnant the first week or two of the time allotted to our pregnancy. Conception begins approximately 2 weeks of our periods begin. Strange it may seem, but I did not know about this initially. Only after my first visit to the doctor i knew this fact.
During the first month, i had severe nausea. I sometimes used to vomit during nights also. I used to feel dizzy very often. My breasts have become swollen, tender and heavy. I used to urinate at the rate of once an hour. I used to get tired very easily and used to feel exhaustive almost throughout the day. I experienced very bad headaches which alleviated my vomiting. That was a torture.These were the physical changes in me.
I started taking Folic acid and Zincovit pills which i continue till now. Though i could not eat heavy meals because of my nausea, i included fruit, leafy vegetables and dry fruits in my diet as much as i can. I made it a habit to have coconut water daily. There are countless benefits of coconut water. Coconut water acts as effective oral re hydration, keeps the body cool, mitigates the risk of urinary infections, Contains organic compounds possessing growth-promoting properties.............and the list goes on. I drank lots of water. One more advice is to drink lots and lots of milk. (This should be low fat skimmed milk. Otherwise it leads to weight gain) On an average you are required to consume 1200mg of calcium. Some of this can be substituted by yogurt, kidney beans, oatmeal and leafy vegetables. I personally do not like Kidney beans. So i ate Muesli, leafy vegetables and Yogurt. Calcium intake reduces the risk of tooth decay and osteoporosis in future.
I was 46kgs (approximately 101 pounds) during my first visit. I am --------------now. Right from the beginning, my intention was to gain as much weight as is good for the baby and not a pound more. I thought it would be difficult to lose this weight post delivery. I even intend to join Lamaze and Yoga classes. I am in search of them now. I intend to take my husband also to those Lamaze sessions. I guess this would help make him feel a part of this whole process of birth. He says he still does not have that feeling of fatherhood though he is happy about my pregnancy. He empathizes with me always, but does not understand my physical and emotional state. This might be a problem faced by many a woman. It is our responsibility to make them understand everything.
By the time i started taking proper diet regularly and got used to it, i entered my second trimester. All the above mentioned feelings i had, have disappeared. (Though i occasionally have bouts of nausea.)
We are not actually pregnant the first week or two of the time allotted to our pregnancy. Conception begins approximately 2 weeks of our periods begin. Strange it may seem, but I did not know about this initially. Only after my first visit to the doctor i knew this fact.
During the first month, i had severe nausea. I sometimes used to vomit during nights also. I used to feel dizzy very often. My breasts have become swollen, tender and heavy. I used to urinate at the rate of once an hour. I used to get tired very easily and used to feel exhaustive almost throughout the day. I experienced very bad headaches which alleviated my vomiting. That was a torture.These were the physical changes in me.
I started taking Folic acid and Zincovit pills which i continue till now. Though i could not eat heavy meals because of my nausea, i included fruit, leafy vegetables and dry fruits in my diet as much as i can. I made it a habit to have coconut water daily. There are countless benefits of coconut water. Coconut water acts as effective oral re hydration, keeps the body cool, mitigates the risk of urinary infections, Contains organic compounds possessing growth-promoting properties.............and the list goes on. I drank lots of water. One more advice is to drink lots and lots of milk. (This should be low fat skimmed milk. Otherwise it leads to weight gain) On an average you are required to consume 1200mg of calcium. Some of this can be substituted by yogurt, kidney beans, oatmeal and leafy vegetables. I personally do not like Kidney beans. So i ate Muesli, leafy vegetables and Yogurt. Calcium intake reduces the risk of tooth decay and osteoporosis in future.
I was 46kgs (approximately 101 pounds) during my first visit. I am --------------now. Right from the beginning, my intention was to gain as much weight as is good for the baby and not a pound more. I thought it would be difficult to lose this weight post delivery. I even intend to join Lamaze and Yoga classes. I am in search of them now. I intend to take my husband also to those Lamaze sessions. I guess this would help make him feel a part of this whole process of birth. He says he still does not have that feeling of fatherhood though he is happy about my pregnancy. He empathizes with me always, but does not understand my physical and emotional state. This might be a problem faced by many a woman. It is our responsibility to make them understand everything.
By the time i started taking proper diet regularly and got used to it, i entered my second trimester. All the above mentioned feelings i had, have disappeared. (Though i occasionally have bouts of nausea.)
Hurray......i am a mommy soon
Today, I just want to think about my baby and do all things concerning it. I want to share all my experiences from the day I got pregnant till date. They deserve 5 to 6 posts all together. I will just tell you how and when I got to know about this good news. How I broke it to every one etc and things like that…….
January 7th was supposed to be my periods date. When I did not get it, I grew concerned the first time itself. I had a strange feeling that it is going to be my baby. I waited for 4days and tried home pregnancy test. It showed positive within seconds. I was happy but at the same time little doubtful. I have read in many blogs that we can never rely on this home test. But i could not keep this news within me and woke up my husband. (It was 4 am) He too was happy but was unconvinced like me.
After that i travelled to my mom's place on the same day. Once i told this to mom she took me to a doctor. She did not examine me and said that was too early to decide. We were not happy with the news and visited another doctor. She too said the same but gave me few tips to be careful.
Me n S did not want to disclose this news then itself. On Jan 23rd, i went to Wockhardt and got a scan done. The monitor was showing my baby inside the womb. It has travelled through the fallopian tubes and reached my womb. Doctor said that i was 6weeks pregnant already. To be honest i could not make out anything from what i saw on the monitor. It was just few mm long. But i could clearly listen to its heart beat. And it was the first time that i saw my baby, be it a thing with such an atomic size. For the first time after my home pregnancy test, my joy knew no bounds. I just felt like jumping and wanted to tell this news to every one in the world. I just could not hide my happiness. Unfortunately S was busy with his phone calls as usual and could not make it to see the scanning done. Both of us felt bad about that.
My morning sickness period has already begun 2 weeks before and there were days when i literally used to puke anything i ate or drank. Unable to cope up with this, i used to cry in isolation. In spite of all this i never had any hatred towards the baby. I do not really know when that mother in me has born. I used to browse every day and tried to know as many things about pregnancy as possible. I was very shy to discuss these things even with my mom. I used to count days after days and weeks after weeks. I used to look at the scanned pictures of babies and imagine how my baby looked. There was not even a single day that i did not see those pictures.
We divulged this news to our friends and relatives once i entered my 4th month.
Even at the slightest of the discomfort, i was afraid and used to run from pillar to post to know about these symptoms. I plan to write a blog myself which would help all the would be mothers cope up with their pregnancy blues. I still need to know many things about this. I even want to keep track of all the changes that are happening in my body and would like to show these to my baby one day.
I just entered my 5th month. I am happy that i passed successfully out of my first trimester. My morning sickness has disappeared and I am comparatively feeling a lot better. Right now.........I am eagerly waiting to get the next scan done so that i can see my baby.
January 7th was supposed to be my periods date. When I did not get it, I grew concerned the first time itself. I had a strange feeling that it is going to be my baby. I waited for 4days and tried home pregnancy test. It showed positive within seconds. I was happy but at the same time little doubtful. I have read in many blogs that we can never rely on this home test. But i could not keep this news within me and woke up my husband. (It was 4 am) He too was happy but was unconvinced like me.
After that i travelled to my mom's place on the same day. Once i told this to mom she took me to a doctor. She did not examine me and said that was too early to decide. We were not happy with the news and visited another doctor. She too said the same but gave me few tips to be careful.
Me n S did not want to disclose this news then itself. On Jan 23rd, i went to Wockhardt and got a scan done. The monitor was showing my baby inside the womb. It has travelled through the fallopian tubes and reached my womb. Doctor said that i was 6weeks pregnant already. To be honest i could not make out anything from what i saw on the monitor. It was just few mm long. But i could clearly listen to its heart beat. And it was the first time that i saw my baby, be it a thing with such an atomic size. For the first time after my home pregnancy test, my joy knew no bounds. I just felt like jumping and wanted to tell this news to every one in the world. I just could not hide my happiness. Unfortunately S was busy with his phone calls as usual and could not make it to see the scanning done. Both of us felt bad about that.
My morning sickness period has already begun 2 weeks before and there were days when i literally used to puke anything i ate or drank. Unable to cope up with this, i used to cry in isolation. In spite of all this i never had any hatred towards the baby. I do not really know when that mother in me has born. I used to browse every day and tried to know as many things about pregnancy as possible. I was very shy to discuss these things even with my mom. I used to count days after days and weeks after weeks. I used to look at the scanned pictures of babies and imagine how my baby looked. There was not even a single day that i did not see those pictures.
We divulged this news to our friends and relatives once i entered my 4th month.
Even at the slightest of the discomfort, i was afraid and used to run from pillar to post to know about these symptoms. I plan to write a blog myself which would help all the would be mothers cope up with their pregnancy blues. I still need to know many things about this. I even want to keep track of all the changes that are happening in my body and would like to show these to my baby one day.
I just entered my 5th month. I am happy that i passed successfully out of my first trimester. My morning sickness has disappeared and I am comparatively feeling a lot better. Right now.........I am eagerly waiting to get the next scan done so that i can see my baby.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Am I a bad Mom
This is my first post on this blog. This blog was long pending. I wanted to start posting the day i knew i am expecting. Today is not any auspicious day but i was rather peeved. The reason being...........i have skidded on a slippery floor this morning. I feel that was partly due to my stupidity. Fortunately, i got badly hurt on my feet and knee cap, but did not fall on my stomach. I bled all over my feet but i did not feel any pain. The only thing on my mind was my baby. Did it get hurt? How is it doing? Am i going to loose it? Suddenly a wave of sadness swept over me. I just sat there and bawled. (After that i got ready for work though i was not bent upon going.) S was not at home that time and i was all alone. When he was back i did not dare to tell him what has happened but he sensed that something was wrong with me. I could not hide it from him and told him everything that has happened. He consoled me for a moment but then i knew how he felt. He was more worried about the baby than me though he did not express it. He even skipped his breakfast and lied that he did not feel like eating today.
This incident today made me wonder if i am a bad mother. Dont i care for my baby even before it came into this world???
Whatever has happened has happened. I am just praying god for the well being of my baby. Oh god!!! please keep it safe inside.
This incident today made me wonder if i am a bad mother. Dont i care for my baby even before it came into this world???
Whatever has happened has happened. I am just praying god for the well being of my baby. Oh god!!! please keep it safe inside.
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